Archive | February, 2011

Pain.

22 Feb

I am getting my period and I have pain. Rectal pain. Uterine pain. Intestinal pain. Blah.

And nobody to blame except myself – and my cheats.

So, I will kick myself in the ass, snuggle up with my advil and my hot water bottles and try to remember this feeling for every time I think, “what’s a little bit of ______”.

Back when I first started, I was DILIGENT. I planned my menus, I had food ready for births, I was prepared. Mentally, I need to get back there.

I also need to get back on my smoothies – when I was having those everyday I felt fantastic. But, it’s hard to want a smoothie when it’s so freaking cold out – I’ve been loving toast with peanut butter and banana. Maybe not for breakfast – maybe for lunch, or a snack? That could work….

So, rather than re-committing at the start of the week or the start of the month, I am now re-committing at the start of a new cycle – here’s to a better month and a better time of it next month at this time!

 

In which I admit I am a bad blogger…and am being dragged by the wagon.

13 Feb

I am just no good at this blogging thing. Though I write brilliantly witty and entertaining posts, with just the right amount of humour and intelligent thoughts, most of the time, unfortunately, I just can’t be bothered.

I’ll draft posts in my head, take pictures thinking of how they will look on the page and make notes for entries I plan to write (did I ever write about the cheese btw?). But when it really comes down to it, I just have a hard time taking this seriously enough to sit down and actually write! I am going to try to do better at this, because the more I talk to people about this whole gfv thing, the more I am hearing about folks who want/need to do this for environmental/health reasons. One friend in particular has a child who needs to be off dairy (and probably gluten, as we’ll find out when the test results are back). It seems as though she’s FREAKING out at this thought. There are so many great products and recipes out there, that it does not have to be such a scary thing. I’m hopeful this can be a place where people will learn that.

Plus, I think it was good for me to be a little more consistent. Kept me accountable you know. I did my three months, noticed some GREAT health changes starting, went home for Christmas, LEAPT gloriously from the bandwagon (and hit the ground hard), and have been struggling ever since. I think I wrote in a previous post that I was uncertain how I was going to maintain the boundary of being “flexible” without losing it completely. It has been hard. There are almost daily “cheats” and I’m starting to feel a little bit of a backslide in terms of the changes I had noticed.

My excuse is In my defense, I have been busier at work in the last three weeks than I think I have been in the past year and a half (because of caseload, missing births etc). Menu planning has been non-existent, eating out is the norm and the definition of what is ok to eat has been vastly expanded. But I am writing today to let you know that I am putting on the brakes and turning this run-away diet disaster around. As of Tuesday, I will be officially a 3/4 time midwife (which means one or two less births a month and more time off call). This will allow me more time to menu plan, make food at home and even get to the gym (as soon as I remember where it is! ha!).

I’m also going to try to better learn how this blog works – I think it could be so much more interesting looking. I would love to put in links to my favourite websites and whatnot. Any tips?